It is a pretty good evening. After singing for unusually long, I thought I should keep quiet.
For a moment, it appeared to me that the entire world is sleeping.
Silent.
No.
I realized that I have become less sensitive to the sounds around.
Those which rarely capture your attention.
Those which you take most of the times for granted.
I listened…
My heart beat…
My breath…
My saliva flowing in…
I sensed the other movements inside me.
My legs growing numb…
The rush of blood to the left part of my brain…
My blinking…each time with varying frequency…
My lips relaxing, then tightening…
My body attempting to balance my posture…
The hustle of the leaves in gentle breeze…
I open my eyes… being aware of the present…
Being aware of self…?
Being aware of awareness…?
Am I…?
I…
What is ‘awareness’?
Showing posts with label Being. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Being. Show all posts
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Being a Singer
I can’t believe it myself!
It is almost 9 years since I stopped learning music and even singing. Forget about singing, I don't even hum a tune!
And now, after this pretty looooooong gap, I am learning music again! My parents, my husband, my in-laws, even my baby could not believe it!
Why? I can’t believe it myself!
Yes, now I sing, practise and listen to music.
I don’t know what stopped me from doing this for the past several years. Perhaps now is the time. As The Alchemist says, when you truly want to do something, and if you are passionate about it, the entire world conspires to make it happen for you…. Yes! I believe in the alchemist now!
My coach was mentioning something similar to me the other day – the difference among knowing, doing and being. As I mentioned in one of my earlier posts, ‘being’ rings in my ears all the time! I guess, it is a part of the evolution – the evolution in me.
I know and I become contented with the knowledge that I gained. I may do it sometime. If I am passionate, I do it more number of times. When I consistently do is when I become and BE. It becomes a part of my being.
I am sure that many of you would have read and reviewed and talked and discussed and argued and known enough about ‘being’.
I still would like to write about it because I feel what ‘being’ is. Now, for me, it is beyond description, therefore, beyond words.
People around me warn – that I should be consistent about my singing. The history should not repeat – what I did a decade ago.
Yes, I realise – now I should ‘be’ a singer; not just sing songs….
But the question is if I ‘realise’, is it ‘knowledge’ or ‘being’? (Sigh, sigh…)
It is a very long road to ‘being’!
It is almost 9 years since I stopped learning music and even singing. Forget about singing, I don't even hum a tune!
And now, after this pretty looooooong gap, I am learning music again! My parents, my husband, my in-laws, even my baby could not believe it!
Why? I can’t believe it myself!
Yes, now I sing, practise and listen to music.
I don’t know what stopped me from doing this for the past several years. Perhaps now is the time. As The Alchemist says, when you truly want to do something, and if you are passionate about it, the entire world conspires to make it happen for you…. Yes! I believe in the alchemist now!
My coach was mentioning something similar to me the other day – the difference among knowing, doing and being. As I mentioned in one of my earlier posts, ‘being’ rings in my ears all the time! I guess, it is a part of the evolution – the evolution in me.
I know and I become contented with the knowledge that I gained. I may do it sometime. If I am passionate, I do it more number of times. When I consistently do is when I become and BE. It becomes a part of my being.
I am sure that many of you would have read and reviewed and talked and discussed and argued and known enough about ‘being’.
I still would like to write about it because I feel what ‘being’ is. Now, for me, it is beyond description, therefore, beyond words.
People around me warn – that I should be consistent about my singing. The history should not repeat – what I did a decade ago.
Yes, I realise – now I should ‘be’ a singer; not just sing songs….
But the question is if I ‘realise’, is it ‘knowledge’ or ‘being’? (Sigh, sigh…)
It is a very long road to ‘being’!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
I have surprised myself again!
Yes, I have surprised myself again! I wish my Love, Vikas was physically with me, here and now, to celebrate each moment that I live. I am sure, being in the other side of this globe, he can truly visualize what I am going through.
Looking back, I cannot think of my life without any changes. It has never been stagnant. I don’t remember when this journey began, for I remember a few scenes where I realized that the journey had begun long back.
I love Charles Darwin, for his phrase – the survival of the fittest. What a plain, simple, yet hard truth! For me, the phrase is not just another one in one of his publications; if I have survived, it is because I explored its meaning fully.
And, to go back to my first line – I have surprised myself again! My journey took a 360° turn: to inward; to the hidden treasure; to MY SELF. Ever since there have only been surprises. What has been the difference? I never realised the changes; it used to happen on its own. Later, I waited for a few changes. A little later, I wanted a few other changes and wished for them. Sometime before, I believed that I can bring about changes. Now, I bring about changes!
Looking back, I cannot think of my life without any changes. It has never been stagnant. I don’t remember when this journey began, for I remember a few scenes where I realized that the journey had begun long back.
I love Charles Darwin, for his phrase – the survival of the fittest. What a plain, simple, yet hard truth! For me, the phrase is not just another one in one of his publications; if I have survived, it is because I explored its meaning fully.
And, to go back to my first line – I have surprised myself again! My journey took a 360° turn: to inward; to the hidden treasure; to MY SELF. Ever since there have only been surprises. What has been the difference? I never realised the changes; it used to happen on its own. Later, I waited for a few changes. A little later, I wanted a few other changes and wished for them. Sometime before, I believed that I can bring about changes. Now, I bring about changes!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Being
I truly believe in what the old King in The Alchemist says, “When you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true.”
Everything began to fall in place from the beginning of this year. I see clarity in everything. I believe in whatever I label to be “gut feeling”. I shed all those beliefs which were inhibiting me from going forward. I pay attention to those voices from inside. I realize the importance of giving equal importance to all my senses.
I see my dream now. I see it happening in front of me… it is more of a reality than a dream. I am passionate about living every moment. Sometimes, it is difficult to transform what one feels into concrete words. It is nothing but the sheer pleasure in being.
Everything began to fall in place from the beginning of this year. I see clarity in everything. I believe in whatever I label to be “gut feeling”. I shed all those beliefs which were inhibiting me from going forward. I pay attention to those voices from inside. I realize the importance of giving equal importance to all my senses.
I see my dream now. I see it happening in front of me… it is more of a reality than a dream. I am passionate about living every moment. Sometimes, it is difficult to transform what one feels into concrete words. It is nothing but the sheer pleasure in being.
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