I can’t believe it myself!
It is almost 9 years since I stopped learning music and even singing. Forget about singing, I don't even hum a tune!
And now, after this pretty looooooong gap, I am learning music again! My parents, my husband, my in-laws, even my baby could not believe it!
Why? I can’t believe it myself!
Yes, now I sing, practise and listen to music.
I don’t know what stopped me from doing this for the past several years. Perhaps now is the time. As The Alchemist says, when you truly want to do something, and if you are passionate about it, the entire world conspires to make it happen for you…. Yes! I believe in the alchemist now!
My coach was mentioning something similar to me the other day – the difference among knowing, doing and being. As I mentioned in one of my earlier posts, ‘being’ rings in my ears all the time! I guess, it is a part of the evolution – the evolution in me.
I know and I become contented with the knowledge that I gained. I may do it sometime. If I am passionate, I do it more number of times. When I consistently do is when I become and BE. It becomes a part of my being.
I am sure that many of you would have read and reviewed and talked and discussed and argued and known enough about ‘being’.
I still would like to write about it because I feel what ‘being’ is. Now, for me, it is beyond description, therefore, beyond words.
People around me warn – that I should be consistent about my singing. The history should not repeat – what I did a decade ago.
Yes, I realise – now I should ‘be’ a singer; not just sing songs….
But the question is if I ‘realise’, is it ‘knowledge’ or ‘being’? (Sigh, sigh…)
It is a very long road to ‘being’!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
I have surprised myself again!
Yes, I have surprised myself again! I wish my Love, Vikas was physically with me, here and now, to celebrate each moment that I live. I am sure, being in the other side of this globe, he can truly visualize what I am going through.
Looking back, I cannot think of my life without any changes. It has never been stagnant. I don’t remember when this journey began, for I remember a few scenes where I realized that the journey had begun long back.
I love Charles Darwin, for his phrase – the survival of the fittest. What a plain, simple, yet hard truth! For me, the phrase is not just another one in one of his publications; if I have survived, it is because I explored its meaning fully.
And, to go back to my first line – I have surprised myself again! My journey took a 360° turn: to inward; to the hidden treasure; to MY SELF. Ever since there have only been surprises. What has been the difference? I never realised the changes; it used to happen on its own. Later, I waited for a few changes. A little later, I wanted a few other changes and wished for them. Sometime before, I believed that I can bring about changes. Now, I bring about changes!
Looking back, I cannot think of my life without any changes. It has never been stagnant. I don’t remember when this journey began, for I remember a few scenes where I realized that the journey had begun long back.
I love Charles Darwin, for his phrase – the survival of the fittest. What a plain, simple, yet hard truth! For me, the phrase is not just another one in one of his publications; if I have survived, it is because I explored its meaning fully.
And, to go back to my first line – I have surprised myself again! My journey took a 360° turn: to inward; to the hidden treasure; to MY SELF. Ever since there have only been surprises. What has been the difference? I never realised the changes; it used to happen on its own. Later, I waited for a few changes. A little later, I wanted a few other changes and wished for them. Sometime before, I believed that I can bring about changes. Now, I bring about changes!
Saturday, December 20, 2008
I am two women...
Maria writes again...
I am two women; one wants to have all the joy, passion and adventure that life can give me. The other wants to be a slave to routine to family life, to the things that can be planned and achieved. I am a housewife and a prostitute; both of us living in the same body and doing battle with each other. The meeting of these two women is a game with serious risks. A divine dance. When we meet, we are two divine energies, two universes colliding. If the meeting is not carried out with due reverence, one universe destroys the other.
I am two women; one wants to have all the joy, passion and adventure that life can give me. The other wants to be a slave to routine to family life, to the things that can be planned and achieved. I am a housewife and a prostitute; both of us living in the same body and doing battle with each other. The meeting of these two women is a game with serious risks. A divine dance. When we meet, we are two divine energies, two universes colliding. If the meeting is not carried out with due reverence, one universe destroys the other.
True Love
When the learning or the realisation that you would have acquired over a period of time comes all of a sudden in front of you with a very attractive, appealing name, you wonder... oh! i didn't know that this concept already existed... and that it has a name too... Anyways, it is always good to go through an experince and learn. It leaves you enriched.
I got a similar feeling when I was reading Eleven Minutes. I cannot put the thoughts of Maria across better than how she has recorded in her diary. A leaf from Maria's diary... (My diary too)...
No one owns anything, that everything is an illusion - and that applies to material as well as spiritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realise that nothing really belongs to them.
And if nothing belongs to me, then there is no point wasting my time looking after things that aren't mine, it is best to live as if today were the first (or last) day of my life...
... All my life, I thought of love as some liknd of an enslavement. Well, freedom only exists when love is present. The person who gives him or herself, the person who feels freest, is the person who love most wholeheartedly. And the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free. In love, no one can harm anyone else, we are responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel. No one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. That's the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.
I got a similar feeling when I was reading Eleven Minutes. I cannot put the thoughts of Maria across better than how she has recorded in her diary. A leaf from Maria's diary... (My diary too)...
No one owns anything, that everything is an illusion - and that applies to material as well as spiritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realise that nothing really belongs to them.
And if nothing belongs to me, then there is no point wasting my time looking after things that aren't mine, it is best to live as if today were the first (or last) day of my life...
... All my life, I thought of love as some liknd of an enslavement. Well, freedom only exists when love is present. The person who gives him or herself, the person who feels freest, is the person who love most wholeheartedly. And the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free. In love, no one can harm anyone else, we are responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel. No one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. That's the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Being
I truly believe in what the old King in The Alchemist says, “When you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true.”
Everything began to fall in place from the beginning of this year. I see clarity in everything. I believe in whatever I label to be “gut feeling”. I shed all those beliefs which were inhibiting me from going forward. I pay attention to those voices from inside. I realize the importance of giving equal importance to all my senses.
I see my dream now. I see it happening in front of me… it is more of a reality than a dream. I am passionate about living every moment. Sometimes, it is difficult to transform what one feels into concrete words. It is nothing but the sheer pleasure in being.
Everything began to fall in place from the beginning of this year. I see clarity in everything. I believe in whatever I label to be “gut feeling”. I shed all those beliefs which were inhibiting me from going forward. I pay attention to those voices from inside. I realize the importance of giving equal importance to all my senses.
I see my dream now. I see it happening in front of me… it is more of a reality than a dream. I am passionate about living every moment. Sometimes, it is difficult to transform what one feels into concrete words. It is nothing but the sheer pleasure in being.
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